I have finally let my hidden feelings out. I am so pathetic.
What did I ever do to deserve this
Wow. It’s been a long time. I’m back here, again, after three hard months.
Yes, a lot of things happened but not much changed. I can’t write them all in here because it will be too long and boring and shit. I just want to update this blog and inform everybody that I’m still alive, though I’m struggling to get up every morning.
See, my last blog post was about changing my ways. Maybe now I’m not zero progress anymore. I’m close to achieving my goal.
Wow. I can’t contain any more of anything. I don’t understand what I’m feeling. Bipolar isn’t the word. And right now, I’m too lazy and depressed to think.
Seems only yesterday it was summer. I don’t want to go to school. Not ever. I don’t get a single thing. I don’t understand anything. I don’t know what to do. And I just could not catch up. Things were so different last year. And now, I feel so sorry for myself. I don’t understand Geometry. I don’t get my thoughts. I don’t know why I’m so down right now. I don’t know anything. I answer every question with three words, “I don’t know”.
Once in a while, I’ll get annoyed even with simple things. I don’t want that, of course. I’m trying to change. And right now, I’m zero progress.
Last night was a lot of fun! Though, the dress code was kind of, um, inappropriate for a ball. Though, our band didn’t win the chance to perform. Though, I was sick. Though, I kind of cried when the song “My Heart” played. Though, our Junior-Senior Prom got cancelled. Okay, this could go on forever. Last night was close to perfection! People were on the floor dancing wild. Even those who were on the bleachers were dancing. Everyone wore glow sticks and neon stuff. WILD AND FUN, it is. BEST AQUI BALL YET!
Ugh how do you expect me to decide what college to attend or who I want to marry or what I want to do for the rest of my life
I CAN’T EVEN DECIDE WHERE TO PUT A STICKER BECAUSE PEELING OFF THE BACK AND HAVING IT STAY IN ONE PLACE FOREVER IS TOO BIG OF A COMMITMENT FOR ME TO LIVE WITH